and so a new day begins
just a simple, beautiful september afternoon
with me and my boys
out for a walk
change is here
apparently i wasn't ready for it
my eyes stinging from the flood of tears
that raged out
left my eyes a bright aqua colour
highlighted by once-white, now red surroundings
damn betrayal of tears
and callum
strong and brave and 4
anxiously clutching his hands
on a warm and sunny almost-fall afternoon
---are you cold?
"i'm okay, mommy"
and he sat
and assessed the situation
and every so often would smile back a nervous smile
my way
at the fence that separated the parents from the kindergarteners
i fought off the emotion
i didn't know it would all bubble up
strong
yes
take pictures
keep it together
sing a song with everett
and that worked until they filed neatly in a line
sang the song with mme robin
and left us at the other side of the fence
as he walked into something new
but older
and then i was done
