i thank these hands

i used to curse them...
the stubby fingers, deeply lined palms, thick knuckles
i thought they were ugly
these hands
silly with rings adorning the fat fingers
unfeminine, boyish, child-like, tiny

and then
i fell in love with my hands
small but strong
forceful and gentle
feeling

i can hover over skin and fascia and muscles and feel them
even before i move deeper
my little investigator hands that feel heat and energy and break adhesions and provide relief and facilitate healing
i realized - realize every day - with gratitude
how blessed i am to have these small, strong, stubby hands
where energy and strength travel over a short distance in the briefest amount of time
and feel
feel it all
and i am amazed, blessed, thankful
these hands i thought ugly
are unexpected gifts

useful
communicate, clean, move

loving
touch, embrace

healing

strong
and i thank my hands
after every treatment i draw them together and feel their sympathetic and wise energy
and i am grateful that they provide
they know
have purpose
i thank them for guiding me
for making good intentions real
facilitating health
restoring
blessed

and now
my chubby little hands are beautiful
their range humbles me
i am thankful
and i remember to thank them
for providing me with my life's work
two small strong stubby hands at a time

what would you do if you could not fail?

i was at a lecture in june where the intuitive life coach leading the discussion asked this question.

what would you do if you could not fail?

and then she continued to explain that voicing that brings all visions together to that goal. there were so many components to that lecture - food for future posts - but in terms of envisioning the future, she just put it so succinctly...gathered the thoughts i've had in the past...made sense and words of them.

intuitively, i have been moving in this direction - natural wellness for lack of a better term.
after books about shamanism, energy medicine, etc., etc...
and courses and lectures on sound therapy and past lives and crystals
all over the place and yet coming together to that one goal
that one idea
the one that i have held as a pipe dream
the one that i would do if i could not fail

and now its voice
a natural wellness centre
open to all - families, singles, couples, friends.
retreats, courses, workshops, gatherings
a gathering of wellness practitioners, healers, philosophers
a place big enough for all the positive, full energy to grow and rise

it will happen
maybe not today, tomorrow
perhaps 20yrs from now
but i've seen my wandering and searching as a journey
i am not lost
i am figuring it all out

what would you do if you could not fail...